All I want to do is go to sleep!!!

I just got off work ($300 in 6 hrs for drinking, socializing and oh yeah collecting cover, so stoked!!) and I'm too amped up on redbull to sleep so I figured I might as well write...

Dad leaves Tuesday for New Orleans to be a part of one of those FEMA mobile doctor groups. We're not sure when he'll be back... It could literally be months, but its something he feels he needs to do, so we're behind him and all for it.

Today is Linds' bday. Yesterday she had a party/bbq. After work I stopped by her house and and all the girls at the party went to nbbc got trashed and then went back to her house to hang with all the guys that we left there at the party. It was fun hanging out with people that I haven't seen in a while or since high school. Its kinda annoying though how all the guys treat me differently now than they did 2 months ago, simply because I'm single, have lost weight and put on some make-up. Its like now I'm worthy of being talked to.

There was one kinda cool thing that happened though. Corey (ex- bf and linds' bro) and I actually talked civilly for the first time since we broke up in hs. It was nice to be able to put all the crap a side for a night and just be friends. Then, later that night the guys left to go to bars and didn't come home, so linds' mom told me I could just sleep in Corey's bed instead of linds' floor. I was stoked because he has a comfy bed. He ended up coming home early in the morning. When he walked into his room he went "WTF? I never thought I'd see you in my bed again!" We both laughed, he told me to move over and we just laid in bed together, talking and watching the sun rise. It wasn't tension filled or awkward. It was really just 2 friends catching up on each other. It was really nice and refreshing actually to finally be able to let down our guards and just be friends again, even if it was for just a few hours.

A couple of nights ago I hung out with Ryan and some of his friends. To make a long story short I drank way too much and ended up completely sick everywhere. We haven't seen each other in years and the 3rd time we hang out I blow it (or at least I thought). Even though he likes me , I thought he'd be so disgusted that he wouldn't come near me. But instead he sat with me all night in the bathroom and when I was shivering from laying on the cold tile floor he grabbed a blanet and some pillows and held me until I was warm and fell asleep. That morning he woke up early to go to soccer practice. When he got back, I was just waking up and he surprised me with breakfast and orchids (my fav flower).

In the midst of stressful classes its hard to remember that I still have awesome friends and family to lean on. And with every day that comes I feel that I am becoming stronger inside and remembering who I am and how to make myself smile, laugh and be happy. It feels good to be walking in my shoes these days...